What me worry?

Today's sermon topic at service here on the ship was anxiety. And honestly, I couldn't really get in to the topic. To use Southern Baptist terminology I was brought up on, the Lord wasn't "speaking to me". I think this is because my "baseline" has been reset too many times.

I think anxiety for me was something that I struggled with early on. But, I think because of all the "life events" I had, it showed me how high your anxiety level could be. There are lots of metaphors out there. For the Navy, we do hearing baselines to see if being around all the loud pumps and whatnot has negatively affected your hearing. I can imagine that after childbirth, it resets your pain baseline. Well, for me, my "anxiety baseline" is remarkably high. I have had many Sailors that ask how I always stay so calm and relaxed. I would argue it's due to being "blessed" with so many life events early on that allowed me to learn what real anxiety is.

Well, I think that it will go up in the future cause of these guys:

I have learned how to control anxiety of "the self". I think I'm still learning how to control anxiety "on behalf of others". Jack is getting in to soccer. Emma is in to ballet. I want them to enjoy themselves and be successful. The trick is, hopefully in that order of importance.

- Matt